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:( [24 Jan 2008|09:39pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

I'm pretty sure I'm right
I don't think it's my oimagination
who knows though...
I am drunk.. alone.. and depressed.
I might have a problem.. what's it to you?

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*sigh* [23 Jan 2008|10:55pm]
[ mood | confused ]

I'm so unsure of myself anymore.
I'm so unsure of what I've done these past few months.
I know leaving Tampa was a good decision, the only thing I'm unsure of is what I'm doing now.  I'm happy, I know that.  But for some reason, (probably my own insecurities and hopefully nothing else) I can't stop worrying.  I keep thinking that I'm becoming a burden, and that my novelty has worn off.  Maybe it's true?  I know the things that were said new years eve did not help these feelings at all.  Yet, I don't even know if what I heard was what was said.  He doesn't even know what happened, and I was so drunk I don't know if I even know what was said.  I know what I took from it, and I'm scared to even bring it up to see if my assumptions and fears are right.  The last time we discussed new years eve, he barely remembered it, and when I mentioned that it wasn't a good night, he had no idea why.  I need to find out.  I might be stressing out for no reason.  Hopefully I am.  But for some reason, maybe it's just the pessimist in me, I feel inadequate. I feel that I'm right, that he's regretting ever saying anything, and ruining the interesting relationship we had working so well.  But then again, it is jake.  He isn't exactly easy to read emotionally...

I'm so emo...

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[16 Jan 2008|06:06am]
[ mood | happy ]

So my new years resolution was to be less responsible...
It's 6:07 AM and I JUST got home.   And I'm drunk.
I think I'm doing a pretty good job of keeping this thing.
What do you think?


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best quote ever [14 Jan 2008|02:25pm]
[ mood | hungover ]

"One more beer, and I'm gonna rock your world."

fucking amazing.. 

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life.... [08 Dec 2007|06:34pm]
My life has changed a lot recently. and I'm really happy, for once.
new things ( some new, some not so new)
I lost a lot of weight.
I cut my hair.. pretty short.
I broke up with jeff.
I'm living in Orlando now, I love it.
I'm moving in to my own place, with a roommate (Scott), but it's my own place. <3 finally.
I'm working at the buffalo wild wings here, I love it.
I need to make some more friends in the area, but that will happen in time I suppose.
I can't remember the last time I was this happy.

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life.... [08 Dec 2007|06:33pm]
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what the fuck [23 Oct 2007|10:33pm]
How come every time I think I'm getting my shit figured out, Life says "fuck you!" and changes shit up out of nowhere???

Hopefully I will be able to figure out what I will do with this new information...
I know what I really want to do.  I dunno if I will have the balls to actually do it though.  I really hope I do though cause it's exciting!
finally I get good news and... I don't know what to do with it... kind of...

Could this entry be any more encrypted? I think it could be.

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OMGZORZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! [27 Mar 2007|09:15pm]
[ mood | excited ]

I HAVE THE INTERNET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

who's excited????

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Wow, It's been so long.. [24 Feb 2006|12:03am]
Hmm, So today I went on the board for the first time in a long time.
I realized how much I miss all the oldschool whores, Like Laurennn, Bob, Circus, Anti, Vin, Kathy and some newer friends like Asshole and Chissy.. *sigh* I miss the days when I actually got to talk to you.
I really would love to see you all again..
<3 </3
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[13 May 2005|07:04pm]
autumn rox my socks.
but her computer doesnt work.
<3 ivy
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EXTREMELY IMPORTANT!!!!! [15 Dec 2004|02:22pm]
[ mood | determined ]

Ok!   I need to know whether or not I will be housed if I go to NYC for new years.

I need to buy my tickets before they get to expensive, If I'm going.

Ian said I can probably stay with him once he gets in the city.. around the 29th or so..

I will need a place for a few days before that then.

I'm planinng on being there from the 26/27-1/2/3??? I need to know if i will have a place to stay.. or else I can't see anyone :-\




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hmm [17 Nov 2004|08:26am]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

things are.. well things.
me and jeff are still broken up.. I just want him to stop hurting.
I don't know If I can go back to all those problems..
I know he says they are fixed now.. I just feel thats not true and that it will be worse if i go back.
I don't know why.. but I do.. I just dont know what to do.. I hate hurting people, expecially someone who didnt do anything to deserve this really.

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NOOO [27 Sep 2004|01:59pm]
[ mood | bored ]

I'm in tampa.. Jeff has no power at his house.
It sucks ass.. I'm probably gonna go home tonight and visit my Ivy.
I hate how hurricanes cause power to be lost, but I love them at the same time.
I have yet to see the damage to my house... probably not to much.



I still miss chris. hmm

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[22 Sep 2004|09:47pm]
[ mood | nostalgic and lonely ]

It's the first day of Autumn.. MY day :)

I was looking through some of my old LJ entries and I realize how much I miss everyone.
I haven't talked to Chris in forever.. and I don't know why.  We just sorta stopped talking after CBGBS. I wish it was back to how it was... I miss him. 

I miss Bob so much. 
I miss Laurennn and Ian and Chrissy and Vin. 
And today Mikee and Matt were over at Ivy's with me and they were singing that song that Blue and Patty were singing the whole time we were together in the city.. that ma ma ma ooh mow mow ma ma ooh mow mow thing.. It made me sad. 
I wish I could see you guys all the time.

I'm so tired of florida.. But I will be here for a while.. I just miss everyone so much.. and not having the board is no fun.. cause I almost never get to talk to you guys anymore either :-\


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mhmm [16 Feb 2004|01:02pm]
[ mood | geeky ]

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